Uber Responsible

I have, ever since the age of 21, felt an over whelming sense of responsibility to the people in my life, the jobs I hold and the 'running' of my household. There were times in college, as well as early in my career when certain aspects of my life spun out of control and after dealing with the consequences of my actions I was determined to never let that happen again. That being said, it is impossible to be responsible for everything, to keep a grip on all that is your world and to do it with out either cutting corners or leaving loose ends.

Money is one of those things I am responsible about. I don't know if it is the moderate influence of my parents, or a true understanding of how, when you live with in your means, you never feel a crushing sense of impending doom when things in your work, or home life go sideways enough to 'cost' something.

I feel a huge sense of responsibility to my children too. With Robbie is a more complex role these days...the balance of giving him enough freedom, but still fully being there and being engaged. 16 is a very important age. He is so close to the sheltered independence that college will offer him and feel responsible for guidance, support and direction. Hannah, it is more a sense of day to day responsibilities and the 'introduction' to opportunities as she grows from a dependent toddler to a child with her own sense of self and direction.

Work is another responsibility. I sometimes wonder if I did a job that required no thought or strategic thinking, if life would be easier.

Responsibilty is, in many ways, a state of mind. I don't know if it is learned, nutured, or ingrained and why, I personally feel so much of it, so strongly...I just know I do.